Working Mom

What I thought I wanted:
-To graduate from college early
-Focus on getting into the corporate world
-"Career Woman"
- Get married, have kids, be a "Working Mom"

What I got:
-Graduated from college 1 year early
-Got into the corporate world by working for a Fortune 500 company (University of Phoenix)
-Became a "Career Woman"
-Got married, had a kid, and now I'm a "Working Mom"

I thought I would be a lot more proud of that title, "Working Mom". I used to think that it was a glorified woman. That "Working Mom's" were unstoppable and could do everything and anything in life. They were accomplished, goal-oriented, smart woman who still valued their role as a mother but found satisfaction in juggling work and family life.

Now I have a whole new perspective. I don't like the fact that I'm a working mom. I don't hate it either. I love my job, I love my co-workers, I'm grateful that I can help provide for our family, we have amazing benefits, Neal can focus on school, and I get a discount on my Masters degree. There are many benefits to being a working mom... but that doesn't make it any easier. I still miss my son. I miss being with him all day every day. I think I took my maternity leave for granted. I kept saying to myself, "I can't wait to get back to work." And now that I'm back, I miss being at home! I'm just torn.

When I'm at work I'm happy. I'm surrounded by great people, I have a fulfilling job, and I feel good about the work that I do. But then I see a picture or video of Liam and I just miss his chunky legs and huge cheeks! I just want to squeeze him and drive home right then and there. Then I'm reminded that I'm a "Working Mom."